I’ve been working with my breath lately. Breathwork is powerful. Without the breath there is no life. And life so much like the breath, with its rhythmic draw and release.
As I sat with my breath, following its rise and fall, it offered me a story. Inhaling, I paused at the top, holding the breath there, holding life within. Feeling gratitude, feeling full. Feeling alive.
Trusting I will feel its fullness once again, I let it go. I let it fall. I followed it down. Down into my roots. I let it all out. And I sat within my emptiness. And I listened from that stillness. I was less comfortable at the bottom of the breath. When can I breath? I feel so hollow.
I listened for my answer. It was so quiet at the bottom. And from this place I heard that small shy voice that brings the world down to its size. I cannot tell you what it said to me. It spoke a million words through the silence. Through the slowing beat of my heart, I listened until I felt at peace with my emptiness. Until I was ready to accept my own dark hollowness. Until I learned winter’s lesson of holding that quiet space after each fall, listening and waiting for life to fill me again.
I was ready to inhale. I was ready to allow my lungs to expand with life, to rise with the truth of fullness I now understood. My breath held a lesson of self compassion, for all the times I have fallen and all the times I will feel empty again. Life will take me to its darkest depths over and over yet still I will heed the call of the heights I have yet to reach. And so I will rise. Again and again, I will rise.
“There is something moon soaked and dawn flavoured about her. Something kissed by the wild and loved by lightning. She looks like Artemis after a night of storm hunting. She looks like the sun as it rises after kissing the dawn.” – Nikita Gill
Nikki is a Mother, Wife, Healer, Hopeful Suburban Homesteader acknowledges words are her mind’s tools; writing her soul’s craft; and this circus of life her heart’s muse. Read more from Nikki here on her blog, The Way I Bee. Nikki’s massage therapy and energy healing, including reiki/cranio with some spontaneous journey work, are part of the offerings at Nourishing Storm Wellness Company.