Sometimes I feel I wasn’t made for this world. Sometimes my mind can’t grasp its ways. Then I go outside. Nature never fails to inspire me. She always shares her wisdom with those who stop to listen. In those wild and untouched places I feel wild and untouched by worry and judgement. I feel free. Whatever great force that pushed the Willow up from the muddy banks before me, that painted the leaves of the Mallow in shocks of pink, that moves the Air across the lake in a dance of ripples and light, that force made me as well. How wonderful is that? (more…)
My motivation waxes and wanes like the moon. She moves like the tides of the sea.
I’ve dug into the safe shores of what I know, yet she lures me to explore what can be.
I’ve danced to her song for so long now. Patiently I’ve waited for the words
That I’m not sure exist. And I wonder if she sings like the birds
Who call to me in my mornings and I can answer back if I am drawn to the tune
But the words will have to be of my own making and I’m mindful not to sing too soon.
Motivation has taught me patience. It has taught me to hold space for my soul
Though I want her to to give me my answers, I must find them myself to be whole.
Anchored in the truth I have found, I trust the winds to bring the next strains
And the winds are not always gentle, but after each storm what remains
Are the pieces of me that are strongest. The pieces I need to sing true.
She finds them and stirs them with purpose. She moves me to be someone who
Will know my words well before singing so I may sing them with all I possess
For this life deserves all I can give it, and she inspires me to give nothing less.
It’s okay that I don’t have all my words yet. I’m soft enough to allow myself this grace
I trust in the unseen way of the soul and understand it moves at its own pace
I will sing what I know so far and accept the song may never be complete
But if I keep singing my truth, I know she will keep offering the beat.
Nikki is a Mother, Wife, Healer, Hopeful Suburban Homesteader acknowledges words are her mind’s tools; writing her soul’s craft; and this circus of life her heart’s muse. Read more from Nikki here on her blog, The Way I Bee. Nikki’s massage therapy and energy healing, including reiki/cranio with some spontaneous journey work, are part of the offerings at Nourishing Storm Wellness Company.
I’ve been trying to activate new pathways of thought. I’ve been in a mental rut. And when my thoughts slip outside the loop, I get lost in the wilds of my mind.
There is so much beauty in wilderness. And so much terror. And all life moves between the two. Trust and fear. I’ve noticed my fear became a normal pattern of thought for me. It became my natural circuit that kept my thinking small. Fear kept me coming back to my loop. But the beauty kept calling.
I don’t know why I had such a hard time with this theme. I thought it was going to be so easy. I’m devoted to Truth. No question. That has been my journey these last few years. I made it part of my spiritual practice to devote each year to something I wish to cultivate then take these monthly themes within the broader context of my intention. I started 3 years ago. I started with Unconditional Love and Compassion – to me they come from the same lineage of energy so I merged them. There is no unconditional love without compassion.
Development isn’t something that just happens. It is a process. It’s not a one and done deal. It requires vision, trust and time.
These days we want everything now. Technology has offered us so much so fast. And our culture pressures us to move as fast as technology can take us. We may be tempted to trade the opportunity of manifesting our entire vision for one piece we can touch right now. If we truly believe in our vision, we are willing caretakers of its evolution for however long it takes.